Beauty and Destiny

 

Sisters Beauty and Destiny began their Autumn evening stroll

through the Endless Park.

 

Beauty with her youthful exuberance skipped ahead, stopped,

then called to her sister “Destiny my dear, what is that flame ahead?”

Destiny caught up with Beauty and replied “That is the Flame of Despair, Beauty my dear. We must quickly pass and avoid the flickering shadows it casts.”

As Destiny spoke a shadow brushed against Beauty, and a suffocating bleak darkness enveloped young Beauty. Destiny took her younger sister’s hand and the darkness lifted.
Hand in hand they continued their stroll.

“Look” said Beauty, “what is that fire on the hill Destiny my dear?”“That is the Bonfire of Hope Beauty my dear. We must quickly pass and not listen to the crackling cries of burning hope”.
Hand in hand the sisters continued their stroll.

“Destiny my dear, what is that fire in the rocks ahead?”“That is the Hearth of Grief, Beauty my sister. It is fed with the woes of the world.
The sisters continued their stroll, hand in hand.

“What is that bright light ahead? asked Beauty”
The sisters stopped and looked closely as the light grew brighter.
“That is the Star of Love, Beauty my dear. It is where we finish our stroll.”
Hand in hand Beauty and Destiny walked toward the Star, into the warmth of its embrace, vanishing into its depths.

The Star of Love rose, and the morning sun flooded the Endless Park.

Not me, an AI poem in my style...

 There were many comments abut this, some interested, others appalled. I'm simply surprised. Anyway, here's the post without the comments.

This is so much fun, playing with AI. I know, I know, we're going to become extinct one way or another so let's have a giggle as we go. I asked copilot to write a Christmas poem in my style. I would never write a Christmas poem, the idea just doesn't appeal, but the following is the result. Hmmm...nah.

 

Sure! Here's a Christmas poem inspired by the lyrical, emotionally rich style of @poetfoley — blending nostalgia, intimacy, and a touch of magic:

“The Light That Finds Us”

The tree is dressed in borrowed stars,

each one a memory flickering —

your laugh in the kitchen,

the hush before snow.

We gather like old songs,

soft and cracked at the edges,

but still singing —

still warm.

The house smells of cinnamon and second chances.

You pour tea like it’s holy,

and I believe you.

Outside, the world forgets itself —

becomes a hush of frost and wonder.

Inside, we remember:

how love is a fire

that doesn’t ask for anything

but your hands.

So we light candles for the ones we miss,

and open gifts wrapped in silence,

and every ribbon is a prayer

that this joy —

this fragile, flickering joy —

will find its way back

again.

 

Showers on Grass

 

When showers fall on grass

there's a word for it,

I forget what it is,

not important, interesting,

but the world still spins.

 

When butterflies emerge there's

a word for it, patho...something or other,

polysyllabic, something else which I forget.

A good word, perhaps important,

and of interest to some.

 

When a stranger smiles passing by,

there should be a word for it,

courtesy, friendliness, none of them are

quite right, the old 'g'day' isn't bad but

still inadequate.

 

When the moon calls and you

love your magic moment,

that's a forever word, or more than word,

a timeless vortex, love ain't it?

 

When the world goes mad and

hate struts like a manic idiot,

when the indescribably despicable

swat truth, ignore love, kill without remorse,

what is left to us?

 

We can

treasure the rainbow and

hope.

Twins Entwined

 

Daisies are springing on the lawn,

dandelions are poking their heads

standard bearers for Spring.

 

Hate killed hate, and even more

hate killed hate.

Hate kills.

I prefer love.

I hate hate.

 

Morning birds charm us with their song,

early workers drive down the street,

the city wakes to another day

as we wake to another horror.

 

Death and hatred.

the twins entwined,

good folk besotted

bad people as always,

bad.

 

When I luxuriate in the sun

I appreciate my fortune.

When I turn on a tap

I appreciate water.

When I breathe

I know life.

 

Good people espouse terrible views,

bad people spout beautiful fantasy,

we all live our deluded lives

as the flowers bloom.

The Dead Can't Speak

 

We assume words have power

but why? 

Some words describe beauty,

some describe fear,

some describe emotion,

some drip tears. 

We like words to be

meaningful, but how? 

Some words are contested,

some are too painful,

some don't reflect ourselves,

some must be careful. 

We love words which challenge us

but which? 

Some words are hurtful,

some words make us cry,

some words are just too hard,

one word is genocide.

Necklaces of Light

 

When he was a kid he could
touch the stars,
watch the twinkle
feel sad when clouds obscured
the view,
feel the depth of black
rippled with necklaces of light.
 
Age is the greatest cloud,
obscuring the wonder and
diminishing the brightness
of the jewels in the necklace.
So he fell into the chasm of
life,
saw painted wildlowers in fields
drew his hand along rippled streams
watched clouds form dragons and
unicorns in the ever changing sky.
 
Still the wonder remained,
the kid would look through aged eyes
at the moon,
and wonder at the mystery of
ripples in space and time,
electron clouds,
the weirdness of particle wave functions,
the queerness of reality.
 
Now the kid has other concerns,
bodily functions no where near as
glorious as the mystery of existence,
light years from the wonder the young eyes
saw...
but the images remain
like hand paintings in ancient caves,
memories of the past.

Three Hundred Years

 

The Redgum over the road
gnarls and twists and drops branches
and lives, for three hundred years,
it lives.
 
It has its own reserve,
surrounded by grass with snakes,
struggles through drought,
is drenched just enough to survive.
It lives, and twists, and gnarls.
Three hundred years.
 
I see it from my study window
and feel very young,
temporary.
 
Three hundred years.

Whispers of Despair

 When we faced the world and
it sneered,
spat in our collective face,
screamed displeasure as
we turned our deaf ear.
 
When we watched history unfold
it repeated,
marched hatred across our
psyche as
we endlessly doomscrolled
bleak landscapes.
 
When we turned our backs and
dismissed empathy,
deserts blossomed and forests withered,
but the markets flew
like an eagle with a broken wing
clutching a rabbit in its talons.
 
The TV is blurred
the radio screams silence
computers, phones, all
cry the pain of generations,
as our voices are hoarse
from shouting defiance
wanting hope...
 
but only the whispers of depair
echo through the void.

Escape

So how did you escape?

You know, from the world of

loss and less,

from the pit of despond,

that slough of despair.

Did you dig a tunnel?
Claw your way to the sun
as rocks and mud filled
your eyes and ears, 
and roots tangled
your heart and hope.

Can you feel the warmth
of arms holding you,
see fields beckoning above
like rosellas, blazing colour?
Listening to the stream,
loving the light.

The Eagle

The eagle doesn't care
about the prey it takes,
the shark takes what 
it wants without care.

The wallaby grazes and
the kookaburra hunts,
the spider spins
and the gambler punts.

The fox prowls while
feral cats slink,
the billionaire laughs
while humanity sinks.

Fire and Celery

 My heart beat

but no-one heard,

celery and zucchini

in the shop,

but no-one knows,

I cooked with love

but only you know.

I heard there's war

and my heart beats,

as innocents die,

but still my old heart beats

as wind blows hot

and trees bloom.

Flowers sing in the breeze,

as children die in fire,

stock markets play their usual

games,

grass grows and birds sing,

as children die in fire.

Amber

When enclosed in amber

you may feel restricted,

a few million years lying dormant

waiting to be found.

The coffee shop buzzes

with steam and chat,

young women

young men

waiting to be found.

The trenches are cold

deadly

with rockets falling and

mortars blowing,

corpses, frozen,

waiting to be found.

Political Tango

 Let's do the political tango,

choose your partner

or let them choose you,

make the moves

a dagger in the back

helps get the feet moving,

and the backers wary.

Political waifs turn your heads,

this is only for adults.

A politician only achieves power

if they are ruthless,

if they play a tough game,

if they are willing to be

elastic with the truth

if they throw both enemies

and friends

under the bus.

But then, what is truth?

Do we read it in newspapers?

Do we see it online?

Does it miraculously spring into

your head?

Do you think you have the numbers?

Do you interpret the numbers

without hatred, or bias.

Let's do the political tango,

choose your partner

or let them choose you,

make the moves

a dagger in the back

helps get the feet moving,

and the backers wary.

Political waifs turn your heads,

this is only for adults.

A politician only achieves power

if they are ruthless,

if they play a tough game,

if they are willing to be

elastic with the truth

if they throw both enemies

and friends

under the bus.

But then, what is truth?

Do we read it in newspapers?

Do we see it online?

Does it miraculously spring into

your head?

Do you think you have the numbers?

Do you interpret the numbers

without hatred, or bias.

Are there other interpretations?

Does the world of politics

twist your head?

Does it make you rage?

Do you really think you can

do better?

So what are the lies they tell?

Do we choose the lies which

suit us?

Do we have enough knowledge,

enough information,

to make a truly informed judgement?

Lies, lies, damned statistics, interpret

as you will, listen to that inner voice

and make your choice.

You'll be wrong

in the least worst form of government.

Eye of the Needle

When we turned back the boats

and left children drowning

I made love to my wife

and slept in a soft, warm bed.

When we destroyed the reef

cut down the virgin forests

I sipped fine wine

and made love to my mistress.

When the end came and I

looked mortality in the eye

fear was my nurse and I was

alone as she spat in my face.

Dreams

 Your dreams do not expire

they don't die

if they live then

you find them

in the light

or maybe in

the dark

or perhaps in

your morning cuppa

swirling in the milk

hot in the water,

cold day lit,

or the cat claws it

or your dog paws it

or the magpies fly

off with it,

dreams on a wing.

V8

Where is the turn?
as you blast flowers
from dual exhausts,
wondering why she ignores you,
in fabulous ignorance, hunting,
as enlightenment flees
to a time without numbers,
only grass forever waving
across the steppes of our depths.

But when the boy became dust he
never thought about beauty,
he was beauty in
iridescence,
a dream on the breeze
a flash of colour in the clouds
a wisp of fragrance in
your hair,
but somewhere drifting in his melody
you cried,
tears watering his bones
and raising an orchid.

Time Traveler

 If I was a time traveler

would my heart still beat

to your tune?

If you were a time traveler

could you still melt my heart

with your rhythm? 

When I become a time traveler

will you follow my tracks

through the sand?

When you become a time traveler

will you search for the path

to my door?

As time travelers together will

we love the world we create

dancing our dreams?

When universe upon universe

is populated with travelers will we

have enough time?

I thought I was a blink of

your eye but tears

washed it away.

Becoming Dust

When the boy became dust he
never thought about beauty,
he was beauty in
iridescence,
a dream on the breeze
a flash of colour in the clouds
a wisp of fragrance in
your hair,
but somewhere drifting in his melody
you cried,
tears watering his bones 
and raising an orchid.

Almost Shot a Rabbit Once

Almost shot a rabbit once
when I was ten years old,
a city kid staying in Wangaratta
with some lovely country folk.

Almost shot a rabbit once
when the menfolk took me hunting,
a city kid in tangled bush
the men wore hunting gear.

Almost shot a rabbit once
it was sitting near a gum tree,
I was handed a .22 calibre rifle
the men carried shotguns.

Almost shot a rabbit once
the hunters told me to shoot,
I looked at the unsuspecting prey
then shot a branch instead.

Almost shot a rabbit once
but hit the target I aimed for.

On Those Roads

On those roads
those endless roads
warehouses and factories
on those roads
white lines leading
down those roads,
lives living dreams
along those roads,
me a pinpoint moving
on those roads
breathe deeply and find peace
pain
you think blood pools
in pans?
wrong
light skewers hope
bright
wrong
you think the world works
as an oiled mechanism?
no
it's a ramshackle jalopy
puffing smoke
leaking oil
love bleeds
on those roads
those endless roads.

The Imperial Pilgrimage of Yuan ShiKai

If you stare long enough at another's face
it shifts,
changes,
flows like melting wax,
becomes another face,
another person,
you feel an itch at the base of your skull,
there is something wrong.

You are not yourself!

You feel inconstant desire,
a tidal surge ruled by the moon
like your face is ruled by eyes,
eyes gazing across a plaza littered with bleeding statues
see completion in rubble,
totality in entropy.

Can you ever understand another's emotions?
ever know the deepest content of another's thought?
You grasp at symbols as a drunkard grasps the bottle,
hunt for archetypes in bewildering fecundity
under the canopy of world jungle.

You awake as Yuan Shi Kai on a cherry blossom morning,
but the Imperial pilgrimage has ended
and you will never occupy the Dragon Throne,
you are the skeleton of a warlord,
with vacant eye sockets which never see the lotus;
an insect skimming across a stagnant pond,
separated by surface tension from the muddy depths,
above divided from below,
the face in the mirror is not yours.

You pluck pieces from a mosaic created by unknown hands,
your fingers bleed,
cut by splinters of worthless glass,
a window closed to that distant world,
once so near,
now lost to your mind,
you are not me,
I am not myself,
not yet,
not in this fragment of feeling.

Perhaps you are Akhenaton replying to the mayor of Byblos,
Eternity waits for you to die the true death,
misunderstood,
forgotten even by the pale rays of dawn.
But no!
you are not Akhenaton,
he has long become one with the dust of millennia,
you are not Akhenaton.
You are not yourself!

The vine hangs heavy with sorrow,
your instinct is to hack and slash,
money is your machete,
your structure is a complex problem in organic chemistry,
your creed an open-cut mine,
a containment pond overflowing with the last flood of misery,
your tears are sulphuric acid,
your saliva strontium 90,
your heart is public property,
there is leprosy in your soul.

Your life is a flowchart with branches always leading to the negative,
avenues of negatives lined with crucified dreams,
the no, no, no, of yourself,
endless denial of yourself,
infinite reflection of infinite regress,
bottomless pit of Being.

Is it ignorance or complicity which attracts punishment?
If despair has many faces can innocence sleep in peace?
You, me, and a song on the breeze,
a name called from dreams,
is this a foretaste of pain or the lick of astringent pleasure?

If the promise of the future is a poisoned apple,
can you identify with a grape?

You must stay in a difficult equilibrium,
buoyed by the minor victory of life
and the absence of personal death,
then slink back to that unearned solitude,
relieved of responsibility,
free to be nothing but the scent of a rose,
the hum of a bee.

You are the winds of change,
the mind of God,
a journey without purpose,
the destination without substance.

If you stare long enough at another's face
it shifts,
changes,
flows like melting wax,
becomes another face,
another person.

You are not yourself!

*Note* Yuan ShiKai was military governor of Beijing at the fall of the Qing dynasty. He assumed the presidency of the first Republic, then attempted to proclaim himself Emperor through an 'imperial pilgrimage'. He died in 1916 after completing three of the four traditional pilgrimage stages.

American Rally 2018

Crowds screamed love
as a toxic eruption burst through
his intestinal walls,
toxic person poison man.

He loved a swirling symbol at the
end of the hall,
half crosses flipping endlessly
his cross, his creed.

A river bubbling with sealed lies
fled beneath a tattooed bridge,
he swam with skeletons and
blood and pastiche of flesh.

Stars cuckolded by lies
spat dark matter venom,
half crosses linked and swirled
around his ankles, cold.

Light in the White House
extinguished,
our world sighs with the
frozen lies dark truth.

The crowd screamed love
as vultures swallowed hope.

Valentine's Poem

Why does love consume you
when you consume love?
Love is your breath
your blanket
the tears you shed
as you sleep with your one,
sharing pain.

Come to the bleak crossroad
where crows pluck your heart,
say it isn't a place you've been
and you lie,
or are confuddled by a
mirage of clowns
juggling mirrors.

I love
like galaxies swirl,
like stars explode,
like your smile is
my universe.

Sunset

When I wrote about love
it rose like the sun above
blue misty mountains,
a glowing tapestry blinding
in the brilliance of your smile.

When I saw your smile
I thought of love,
how it crossed the sky
lighting my life,
warming our hearts.

When my heart warmed
I caressed you,
bathed in your smile,
as we watched stars sparkle
and the sun set across our plains.

Inauguration Day, 2017

If he was a better person
we would not live in fear,
if he was kinder we would
live in hope,
if he was brighter 
we would be confident,
if he was not president perhaps
the world would not end.

There are too many 'what ifs'

for us to make sense

of a world where insanity
is truth everyday,
eaten with cereal and toast,
serial mania and
presidential boasts.

The drones will fly
where ever he decrees,
friends and enemies will
come to see that brief flash
as fire rains down,
your last sight, final vision,
a manic grinning clown,

clutching a bible he cares

nothing about.

Love is a Sea

Her sigh is a breeze

rippling leaves,

her smile is laughter

trailing dreams,

her eyes are mirrors

scintillating sorrow,

her love is a sea

drowning horror.

They Came

 I heard a cry from a leaden sky

but there was no-one there

I stood for a while and felt nothing 

a drifting cloud

the cries were muted, muffled

gagged with silk scarves

while kittens mewled and

puppies snuffled

nowhere could I see the harpies

screeching

people shuffling awkwardly

life paths lined with dripping tears

eyes in clouds judging

ears in trees hearing

your confession

your collaboration,

as they came for us and

we knew, we knew

but what could we do

as leeches sucked our blood?

The Silence of Poetry

When poetry is silent

you can't hear it with your ears,

you don't hear it when you're kind,

you never hear it with your philosophy,

you can't hear it with your mind.

You won't hear it in a song,

or find it in a breeze,

it will hide from your sight

like an eel in the sea.

It will flee from your sight

a cloud across your brow,

then confound your expectations

with flopping whimsy flight.

When words are waifs in the wind

then your poems are fine,

far better than dusty dreams,

like mine.

Bronchial Asthma

I forgot my life

left it in some bargain bin,

a flitter of glitter

little old ladies ignore

in their endless opportunity quest.

I note each breath you take

watching the mist seep from your mask,

somewhere the falcon soars

but not with me this night.

High voices chatter

deep voices command

a party envelopes the street.

What is their essence?

What the fuck am I doing?

Why do I question the

ruckus and rousting of

folk following their lives?

There is a rhythm I follow

a melody syncopated,

when true it's good but

I dread the deadly offbeat.

As you breathe deeply

I worry every second,

perhaps the snores will stop,

the rhythm will falter

and I'll only hear the chatter

of parties.

Sing the Silence

Sing the bees
with lemon blossom
finding the sun,
deepest blue sky
quietest days,
with only the cockatoos
making their usual racket.

Sing the silence
of humanity in our street,
apart from the kids who scoot
up and down outside their houses...
well behaved, good kids,
no back yards.

Sing the togetherness
as we isolate and vegetate and
bake and love,
we make our lives count
on the couch.

The Reactor in the Shed

Chapter 2

I was about three when I began to suspect my family were a bit peculiar. Not that I had much to compare them with, after all, my cousins and aunt were peculiar too. The neighbours were distant figures, but those I met seemed quite nice and somehow different to my family. But I was only a little girl, a toddler, so what did I know? Well, quite a lot really, since I could read their minds. Most of the neighbours thought my family were peculiar, but couldn’t understand why. After all, the house and garden were neat, the nature strip regularly mowed. Dad went to work at some important secret laboratory, and mum stayed home and did mum things like cooking, cleaning, and fine-tuning the vortex generator.

It’s all so long ago now, over a century, but occasionally I still feel the tingle of apprehension when I discovered dad had a nuclear reactor in the back shed. It was a beauty, a cold-fusion reactor, so it was quite safe. But I’m jumping ahead. I should give you some context to the story, starting with how I came by my name, Lightwings Freestar.

This is not the name I was given, that old moniker is long gone, used now only for legal documents and presented to people who can’t handle Lightwings. Yes, there are people like that, heaven only knows what type of lives they lead. Boring I expect. I won’t bother you with it. Suffice to say the people in my life who count all know me as Lightwings, and that is how I like it. My family name is irrelevant as it wasn’t their real name. I heard mum say it once, a gargle of consonants and chirps. She was usually very guarded but they’d had a few glasses of sherry, at least I thought it was sherry, it was in a decanter so I couldn’t tell what it really was. It was red, and smelled strange. Dad brought it out from the shed and it sparkled and fizzed for a while until it settled into a red sherry-like liquid. They never offered it to guests, but did enjoy imbibing on the odd occasion, and there were lots of odd occasions, mostly after I was packed off to bed.

Thinking about my childhood bed, it was disconcerting mum insisted on tucking the sheets so tightly around me I could barely move. The chain attached via a padlock to the bed frame made it even more difficult, and although I could squeeze out the rattling and clanking invariably brought dad into the room to scold me. I thought all little girls lived in a locked, windowless bedroom and slept in a chained bed.

Starpainter

Chapter 1

Miko Jōre stared at the canvas and wondered what the hell she’d just painted? She knew what she’d intended to paint, a portrait of her beloved husband and best friend Prog, but somehow a starscape had flowed from her brushes. This was not unusual. Much of Miko’s art had stellar themes, after all her daughter was a famous astronaut, but rarely did she deviate from her intended subject.

‘What is my unconscious trying to tell me’, she thought. Perhaps it was concern for Sandra and her husband William, 4.2 light years from Earth, and busy establishing a base on a moon of Proxima Centauri B. The planet itself was too dangerous to semi-permanently occupy, but the moon, recently named Gagarin, was like a giant honeycomb and with some effort habitation could be established in its voluminous caverns. A red dwarf star, Proxima was erratic, and likely to unpredictably emit deadly solar flares. The mission had to be continuously on high alert.

The propensity for extreme solar flares was what rendered Proxima B, nicknamed ‘Smoky’, uninhabitable. Although it was only slightly more massive than Earth, whatever breathable atmosphere it may have once possessed had long been blasted away. It was extremely volcanic, so acrid clouds of smoke drifted from countless locations on the planet, the result of an intensely hot iron core and thin rocky crust. Despite the vulcanism, and proximity to its sun, Smoky was still extremely cold.

Miko’s painting depicted a scene of Smoky viewed from Gagarin, with a blaze of Milky Way stars forming a halo around the turbulent planet. She’d beatified Smoky, though once again, she had no conscious clue why. It was like she was viewing the scene through Sandra’s eyes, which was utterly ridiculous. Countless images and films had been transmitted to Earth from the mission, but none to her knowledge resembled this.

She mentally shrugged and turned from the canvas, leaving her studio to make a cup of tea. She was alone in the house, her husband Prog visiting his old friend Wayne down the street. At their age, a home visit is quite the expedition. Once you’re over a hundred a short walk is a little like running a half marathon. A few years younger than Prog, Miko was approaching her centenary, and although painting was more difficult and slower than in her youth, it was still intensely fulfilling. She made a pot of her favourite strong black tea, brought it back to the studio, and settled into a comfortable armchair overlooking the stunning Lake Geneva.

Social Distance Recipe #1 - You Beaut Bread (gluten free)

Dry Ingredients

400 g White Rice Flour
60 g (1/3 cup) Brown Rice Flour
60 g (1/3 cup) Polenta
60 g (1/3 cup) Potato Flour
1 tbsp Guar Gum
2 teasp. Gluten-free Baking Powder
1 teasp. Salt
3 tbsp Raw Sugar
3 tbsp Soy Drink Powder (or full cream dairy milk powder)
2 teasp. Dry Yeast
½ teasp. Caraway Seeds
2 tbsp Linseeds
1 ½ tbsp L.S.A.
1 tbsp Sesame Seeds
1 tbsp Sunflower Seeds

Mix dry ingredients well.

Liquid Ingredients

450 ml (2 imp. Cups) Water
3 Free Range (60g) eggs (or equivalent egg substitute)
1 teasp. White Vinegar
3 tbsp Olive Oil

Whisk liquid ingredients lightly but thoroughly, trying not to aerate too much.

Mix wet and dry ingredients well, and when using a Bread Machine, place a handful at time into the bread tin and compact well with a spatula or spoon to eliminate air bubbles.
Set the Bread Machine to 1kg (1,000gram), Basic setting. Yum!

Mixture can be used to create rolls or oven baked bread. If not using a Bread Machine, continue to mix and roll the dough for several minutes then allow to sit and rise in a warm place for 45 minutes to 1 hour. Place in oven either as rolls or in a bread tin and cook at 180 c for approximately 40 minutes or until golden brown.

The Name Game. By Whitefeather Light

When a babe is born
you know that it's true,
that the fairies must name it
when the babe's gifts are new.

The parents to be could not find the name,
so they asked their friends for help in the game.
They looked under pots and pans to see,
in cupboards, tins, and jars of strawberry,
they checked the pillows and under the TV,
behind the curtains and the settee,
around the bushes and flower beds too,
in the letterbox to see if there was news,
then put their heads together that night
to find a name that would be just right.

The Atlas and Encyclopaedia they read,
tried Gods and Goddesses until some one said,
"Call out some names surely one must be true,
might pop from our heads right out of the blue".

There's
Bonny and Otto, Ted and Talbrook,
Kerad and Sharod, Sinaed and Shanook,
Harry and Tao, Ninoo and Shi,
Tirra and Tonlar, Kerrin and Ki,
Kiboor and Carter, Talan and Tess,
Rinald and Robik, Borin and Bess,
Berrin and Brais, Daisy and Doa,
Oh heaven knows!
Shola or Sprigs, Aldro or Annette,
Enzo or Elright, Kinto or Kent,
Lauren or Leesha, Miro or Mitch,
Pam or Primrose, Perry or Prince,
Ula or Arie, Aran or Ram,
Dahlia and Driko, Kerra or San,
Sharra and Prenroe, Garth or Jem,
Jedda or Janine, Teemo or Tim,
Preta or Prama, Inu or Illees,
Lara or Lindon, Sharn or Anadees,
Tabbra or Tark, Vreshta or Vorn,
Zerra or Zak, Tirran or Rawn.

They thought of the elves and fairies' names too,
there's sure to be one they can think of soon.
Well there's
Sprite and Spin, Tribbles and Finn,
Blossom or Tinkles, Tipsin or Twing,
Dipple or Glips, Prip or Glow,
Sprassle and Sky, Jonquil and Snow,
Moondust and Sunglide, Flips and Swit,
Cherrylite and chort, Trickle and Slip,
Sparklet and Belltime and Buttercup Blue,
Swich and Robinsong or Petticoat Moon,
Starlett Dew and Dreaming Ray Rain,
Rainbow Twill or Prism Sain,
Dainty Filly and Dancing Light Bee,
Crickety Toll and Skipping Tree,
Cumquot Jip and Singing Wings,
Mirror Moonbeams and Fiddlety Thrings,
Twinkletoes and Satellite Hue,
and that was just to name a few.

Well the list went on with the party till dawn,
but alas, no name for the babe to be born,
they shook their heads and departed in despair,
had the Fairies forgotten and Elves not care?

My heart was pounding, I could say no more,
when I heard Tinkerbell knock at the door,
she said,
"At the end of the garden a bell will be heard,
and your babe will be named by the early morning bird",
...and her name is Bella.

(c) 2020 Whitefeather Light

Burning world

When summer was consumed
by flames
she froze
in the gum tree,
blackened paws.

As smoke choked the sky
wind whipped searing wind,
choking hell
limping through
smouldering debris.

Then the end came to her
as it came to so many others,
alone in an orange nightmare,
and we taste the ash
of her blackened world.

The Deepest Night

The deepest night closes in
across a sterile land
vacuumed of love and
shredded by hate,
where dogs howl
and birds fall from the sky.

Autumn settles over the south
while the north is incandescent,
a torpor of indifference
of apathy,
carpet fields of lies
and wizened evil grins.

You thought
you hoped
you wished
people would care,
but not enough,
there's never enough care.

The deepest night closes in
across a land with a dark heart
swept clear of grace
despoiled by people
failing history,
failing themselves.

Surprise is not an emotion
sadness is a state of being.

Silence of Leaves

Today
when the sun split
the clouds
I thought of butterflies,
but a car hurrumphed by
and a jogger padded past,.

Still
the air breathed gum tree
and clouds toyed
with my dreams,
dancing fancies.

But
the silence of leaves
rippled like breakers
on your freshly born beach,
and I was alive like
children squabbling,
heartfully new.

First novel - LIFELINERS

I self published my first novel, a sort of science fiction, horror, romance, fantasy last week on Amazon. It was fun writing, and from chats with a couple of folk, an entertaining read. I don't like going through the motions of chasing literary agents and publishers, although a proofreader and editor would've picked up obvious errors and undoubtedly vastly improved the book. It was supposed to be three chapters longer, however I decided what I intended was simply padding and dropped them in favour of resolving the plot. Anyway, see below for details, and beneath that Chapter 1.

Chapter 1

Doppelganger

I despise jackhammers. In my hierarchy of detestation, they rank second to chainsaws and only marginally above angle grinders. The fact that all three of my most hated sounds were currently performing a post-modern opera inside my head reinforced this opinion. Another irksome detail of existence I would gladly abolish if the power was presented is bright light, particularly the incandescent globe variety. This too confronted me, providing an exceedingly unwelcome sight to the pustules I laughingly called eyes.

I think the sound oozing from my mouth was a groan, but perhaps it was more a moan. Hazy memories of the final night after party clawed their way to the front of my head and flopped exhausted on a lobe. Even that hurt. The expression ‘painful memories’ might be literal truth. Now only one more excruciating detail of my current state remained to be examined at leisure – where the hell am I?

I know who I am. That at least is still clear, lamentable but clear. Prognathous Jōre. Yes, yes, I know, a damned stupid name I can only blame on a bipolar father with the surname Jōre and a blindingly ridiculous obsession with Neanderthals. Or was it Pithecanthropus? Anthropology documentaries on obscure cable TV channels tended to soothe him. Doesn’t really matter, I was his little Proggy and in between manic episodes he loved me in a fashion. Often 17^th century fashion, don’t spoil the whip or leave the cane idle lest Demons occupy my stick thin kiddy frame. I sort of came to like my forename but very few people with whom I came into contact could tolerate it, hence I’m usually called Prog. I tell people it’s short for ‘Progressive’, since my family were the Fabian equivalent of Quakers. Utter bullshit of course. My father was so reactionary he made Genghis Khan look like a Kindergarten teacher, and my mother was so far under his thumb you could barely make out her splayed limbs. I could go all Ned Kelly cliched and utter ‘such is life’ except it makes absolutely no difference and the thought of it is currently raising decidedly unwanted bile.

There’s that sound again, yep, a moan, but this time not coming from my mouth. I raise the tree stump masquerading as my head and peer around. The surroundings are unfamiliar and utterly disquieting.

I’m lying on a filthy mattress on a concrete floor. I can feel the cold of concrete seeping through the mattress adding another dimension of pleasure to my already delightful circumstance. Directly above me the incandescent light globe desultorily hangs from a sagging plaster ceiling crisscrossed with rusty pipes and rotting timber beams. A factory? Warehouse? A previously unknown circle of Hell? Probably all of the above. Looking around I can see wooden crates and unidentifiable pieces of metal lit by the small circle of light. Past this comforting sight are shadows, and someone or something moaning. Do rats moan? I’m sure this place plays host to hordes of rats, probably mutated six-foot rodents with radioactive fangs and electrified tails. Imagination can be a boon for an actor but too much of a good thing makes for dyspeptic visions. Do giant mutated radioactive rats enjoy munching on washed out actors? Doubtful. Even they would have to have standards, a beautiful leading lady or lantern-jawed leading man would be far preferable.

I roll off the mattress and fail to climb to my feet. Crawling is an option however several million years of evolution tweak the bipedal instinct and I manage to stagger to my feet. The extraordinary biped benefits kick in as I blurrily survey an especially unsavoury environment. There are no lions so I’m not in a sub-Saharan veldt. The light bulb is not the African sun. Tick two for the good guy. Now where the hell am I?

“Hello” I squeak, not feeling particularly hairy chested, “is anyone here?”. I stagger around, away from the mattress. The moaning groan seems to drift from all corners of the room, from everywhere, but my senses focus on a shadowy corner in what seems to be a basement service area. An old building, I think, probably built in the 1930s or 40s. I hear the faint drip of water along with a slight clang indicative of antique plumbing. The floor is littered with the accumulated detritus of decades; plaster, bricks, glass, mouldering cardboard boxes, pieces of rusted metal. The cacophonous opera in my head is slowly conceding soundscape rights and more ambient noises filter through my ears. Scurrying of small furry legs – probably not six-foot radioactive mutant rats just the mundane variety. I examine the shadowy corner. Nothing, only more debris. I search for the source of the moans across the basement, stubbing my toe on a brick. The sound strangely seems to be coming from where I awoke on the grubby mattress.

Hmm, I’ve somehow lost my shoes and socks. Come to think of it, I’m not wearing my usual shabby jeans and moth-eaten jumper. No wonder the concrete was cold, I’m stark naked. I didn’t go to the party commando, although my usual attire wouldn’t win awards at the Fashion Festival, at least I don’t try to frighten stray children. Starkers is a different proposition. Even I couldn’t tolerate the sight of my naked torso. “Where are you?” I ask, “are you OK?” Another groan adequately answers the latter and confirms the directional clue. I carefully navigate my bare feet across the concrete floor back toward the source, guided by the light globe.

The moaning groans emanate from a pale bundle curled on the filthy mattress. This is truly, scarily weird. I’d just risen from that same disgusting mattress. As tension heightens my senses and my befuddled brain climbs from the swamp I notice a foul stench. The basement could never be considered a field of lavender but this scent is more than background aroma. Old graveyard mixed with a hint of rotten egg prodded my gagging reflex, but remarkably I managed to keep the previous night’s excesses in my stomach. Reluctance is an inadequate noun to describe my unwillingness to approach Mr. or Ms. Pongy, but a long-ossified sense of obligation rears its annoying head.

There are no windows so the only light source was the bulb hanging over the mattress. From what I can dimly see Pongy is in a similar state of undress to myself, excruciatingly naked. How he came to be sprawled on the mattress I’d just vacated is a conundrum my brain can’t process. I’m concluding he’s probably male when he shouts “RUN”, moan groans weakly, then says faintly “get away, now…”. He rolls over and I see skin hanging from the side of his face, raw flesh faintly visible where cheeks should be. His eyes are pus, weeping some poisonous ichor and his mouth is drooling yellow phlegm. He has no nose, only a gash. I glimpse rotting flesh stripped from his chest and limbs. How did I see this so clearly? A flashlight from a door which had opened behind Pongy swept across his pox riddled near-corpse. I stagger backwards, stepping on a rusty nail, but the pain is overwhelmed by disgust, potent fear and a White Rabbit level of disorientated absurdity and confusion. Mr Pongy is me.

“Prog! What on Earth are you doing down here?” I recognise the voice of the shadowy figure in the door as Georgia ‘Gee’ Gvazava, one of the members of our theatre company ‘Red Square’. She hadn’t been in the just finished production being busy having a baby but I knew her well. We liked each other, although she justly considered me a complete idiot. The flashlight was trained directly on my face. I raised my arm to shield my eyes from the glare and said “I haven’t the faintest idea Gee, all I can remember is the party last night and waking up here, wherever ‘here’ is.” She pointed the torch down at the rotting, stinking imitation of my unimpressive body and gasped “that looks like you Prog. What the fuck is going on?” My thoughts to a tee.

“This is the Lower Ground floor of Building 6” said Gee, “a cleaner smelled something funny in the stairwell and reported it to us.” She stared at the figure on the mattress. Green goo was coming from the gash where its nose should be. A blackened ear seemed about to drop off. Gee was a security guard for the private firm which guarded the university’s City campus. In her spare time she was a mother, partner, actor and a pretty decent painter. She was also an ex-cop and tough as nails, nothing ever fazed her. Except perhaps seeing two of me, one of whom appeared to be a rotting ghoul lying on the floor of a creepy basement in the middle of the university. It most assuredly fazed me.

Ghoul me then spoke, although the gurgle croak issuing from his ruined mouth barely met the definition of speech, “the Editor…the Editor is coming. Run you fool” then the gurgle croaking ceased. Before our eyes, lit by Gee’s flashlight Ghoul Prog began to melt. Limbs oozed into slimy green puddles and dripped from the edge of the mattress onto the concrete floor, spreading in a noxious puddle towards our feet. The torso began to melt, and finally the head. “The Editor” it croaked one last time, “Run!”, then there was only a small pool of ichor soaking the mattress and fouling the floor.

Gee yelped, fumbling and nearly dropping her flashlight as she backed into the doorway. Shadows leapt across the room. I squealed in fear and disgust, then ignoring all sharp and dangerous debris leapt across the mattress and barrelled into Gee. We both tumbled out the doorway, Gee having the presence of mind to slam shut the old wooden door behind us. We both fell to our knees breathing heavily. Gee was shaking, but I was too petrified to bother with such nonsense as shock. What in the name of everything sacred was The Editor? And how had I just melted into a pool of slime in the basement of an old uni building? I ran my hands across my torso, good, still intact.

The door we had exited banged loudly, as if an iron clad boot had kicked it. Another kick, more powerful this time followed, and the rusty hinges began to creak. Another kick, and I could hear wood splintering.

“Run” I screamed, and we scrambled to our feet and began clawing our way up the rickety metal staircase at the end of a short, dank hall. I briefly wondered why whatever was coming after us hadn’t bothered to use the door handle but guessed monstrous Editors preferred a dramatic exit. The door shattered as we were half way up the stairs. I glanced over my shoulder and instantly regretted the action.

A black, oily cloud was slithering over the ruins of the wooden door. It may as well had flashing neon signs pointing to it and a heavy metal soundtrack screeching “EVIL”. Gee is younger and far fitter than me, so reached the top of the staircase well in the lead. I was breathless when I reached the top, another hall, more used and less dilapidated. Several doors lined it and a glass door at the end revealed daylight and street trees. We raced toward the daylight, Gee several lengths ahead. Neither looked back as we bounded through the door into the street. Gee grabbed the walkie talkie from a holster on her shoulder and began frantically babbling to the security centre. I don’t think she had any idea what she was saying, I sure as hell had no words to describe what had just happened. It was semester break so there were few students around to stare critically at my flabby torso, nevertheless I was suddenly, acutely aware of my nudity. “We have to keep moving” I said to Gee, “and I desperately need to find some clothes”. She nodded and we began running toward the security centre at the entrance off Franklin Street. There was no sign of The Editor, black cloud, or slimy ghouls, only a couple of curious academics watching this strange procession. You have to love universities.

By the time we staggered into the security office I had crashed into a near semblance of sobriety. Someone mercifully passed me a jacket. The power tools buzzing in my head had subsided to a dulled explosion and I realised I probably wasn’t actually pissed or stoned. Memories of the previous night’s party were slowly filtering through my synapses and I recalled I drank very little, a few light beers and a glass of cheap red plonk. Not nearly enough to pass out and awaken with an armageddon of a hangover. A responsible driver in my old age the pleasures of raging till dawn had become a fond memory. I suffered all the pain but still couldn’t remember any preceding pleasure. What was my last memory of the night?

Talking. I was talking a lot. I’m usually a fairly reticent fella but the high of a last night performance and a few drinks made me more voluble than normal. I’m characterised as a ‘character actor’, a loose phrase applying to someone who doesn’t possess any significant skills or outstanding appearance but can fill a one-dimensional role. A Rosencrantz if you will, the classic ‘attendant Lord’. My speciality was an ‘irascible old man’. I’ve become an old man playing an ‘irascible old man’. Not highly in demand but I can fill in for other minor roles, usually vaguely comic and slightly obnoxious. Strangely I’m mostly considered a pretty mild mannered, easy going bloke. Reasonably erudite and fairly well-educated for a mediocre Arts graduate. Creative too. I write, sing, and can even paint a bit. Sadly, though unsurprisingly, none of these talents have led to financial success and I survive pushing a book trolley and helping on the service desk at Yarra Plenty Libraries. Alicia Fields is the library manager who helped me score the job 25 years ago, one of the actors in our company and an old uni friend from back in the day. I was chatting with her last night before…before when? What happened after talking with Alicia?

It was around 10:30 when seven of us tumbled in to the Sleaze Bar in Swanston Street. The play had run for 10 days at the Barley Theatre in Southbank and was a great success. The small theatre was packed for every performance and on the final night we had people standing at the back and sitting on the stairs. The director, Ivan, was expostulating wildly to the producer Liz, a huge grin on his face. Liz was mellow, responsibility slipping from her shoulders like a silken shawl. Alicia, myself, leading actors Spencer and Colleen, and lighting come sound guru Natasha made up the after-party group. Costumier Sally had classes in the morning and in her sensible manner had absconded safely home to bed. I was talking with Alicia about how hilarious her ancient nanna character had been that night when a stranger slipped beside me. Alicia smiled and nodded farewell as she merged into the rest of the group. Happily married for decades with three kids, she recognised an opportunity for intimate socialising materialising for her single friend and colleague.

The stranger was a raven haired, green-eyed woman apparently in her late 30s or early 40s. Nearly as tall as my six-foot two-inch frame she would be striking in any company. Exquisitely attired in a black evening dress and astonishingly beautiful, in this crowded bar she exuded a presence rarely found. Tongue-tied at the best of times when meeting a new person, this woman not only tied my tongue but left it flopping on my lips. After that, nothing. I couldn’t remember a thing until waking up on that stinking mattress. Had the strange, beautiful woman drugged me? I felt she was hauntingly familiar, like distant faint notes from a forgotten song, or lines from a poem read at school. Almost a nostalgic familiarity.

I was distracted from my musings by Gee shaking my bare shoulder.
“Bob and Ian went down to the room in building 6” she said. “They reckon the door had been blown out by a gas explosion…the smell was still hanging around and they thought it might’ve been something from the labs above. It looked like someone had broken into the lab and messed around, the lights were still on but nothing was damaged. The old mattress was down there, but no sign of anything else, and your clothes were next to it. Here.” She handed me a plastic garbage bag containing my clothes and shoes. I turned away to preserve whatever modesty I still possessed and quickly dressed.

“I’ve got no idea what we saw down there” she continued softly, “maybe it was a hallucination brought on by the gas or whatever.” She looked like she didn’t really believe that, and neither did I. For a few moments I’d been confronted by my decomposing doppelganger, and it had been the most frightening experience of my life. Something damned strange had gone on in that scungy basement but exactly what I wasn’t sure I wanted to find out. I do want to know what happened to the missing hours after I’d encountered the mystery woman. I also wouldn’t mind seeing the mystery woman once more. She was spectacular, a scene stealer in any play, but was she dangerous? Probably. Given my luck she is a demonic serial killer toying with her prey. To hell with all that, I’m tired, hungry, scared, confused and embarrassed. I just want to go home and hide under my blankets.

 

Songs at the end of the world

Somewhere over the horizon
you might glimpse
a prospect darker than those
thousand suns which left
us cold.

Take the hand offered and kiss
her lips,
stars spin with delight in
our capsule
light in heart
dark in dread.

You know where it leads
you've seen the butterfly fall
you've felt the final beats
of a selfless heart,
you can cry as the rain calls.

He walked down a dark track
listening to that crazy dude in his head,
a night filled with old songs
looped forever in vinyl scratches
punishing the right.

So the seas sighed
choked with debris, and
we danced on the beach
to melodies of songs
at the end of the world.

The walking leaf

Where is my faith?
It floats on a breeze
butterfly wings,
purple tinged belief.

Where is my thought?
It digs in the blackest of mines
burying dreams,
darkness loves relief.

Where is my hate?
It slithers along a branch of despair
killing sympathy,
empathy is a thief.

Where is your hope?
It dissolves in the sea
shark fins,
life is brief.

In the park I caress the breeze
and watch the walking leaf.

Mallee Sunset

She knew the tide burned emerald ripples
when clouds froze diamond thought,
rivers harmonised distant moonscapes
and forests hummed futures bought.

He lost a fancy in his haste
and dazzled a cobblestoned alley,
then splashed through bowtied streams
all the way to the dusty Mallee.

They met under a ruby moon
somewhere east of the end of nowhere,
their hearts softly braided with
starlit threads lit ruby fair.

Now when sunset seas blaze
and night fields laze in the breeze,
they stroll past memories hanging
in sapphire galleries of dreams.

Temptation

I fight the temptation
to be all things to
myself.

I lie to myself that
I'm all things to
myself.

I love the thought that
I'm all things to
myself.

I drift through a universe where
I'm all things to
myself.

I don't think
I'm all things to
myself.

I know it's foolish to state
I'm all things to
myself.

I'm a fool.

In perpetuity

In perpetuity is too much to ask
when all I can give is ephemeral,
as the gardenia blooms and is
plucked
all that drifts is fragrance.

Aroma lasts as long as we feel
the blaze of a flower blooming,
time is an essential error
luck
flying through wisps of favour.

Circumstance is an excuse denied
as reality gnashes her teeth,
I stand bare revealed
stark
beneath your feet.

Napoleon's Hat

The emperor sits upon his rearing horse
stage draped with blood red curtains,
his face is wooden
a puppet's face
his horse a statue
a theatrical prop
lacking the grotesqueness of Guernica
lifeless as a five centime piece.

This world is closed as any
scene in high theatre,
frozen, stylised movement
action without consequence
passionless
remote as a suburban street.

Napoleon's hat drifts above the scene
removed from the stage,
a discarded relic
just another lonesome cowboy
his blood is cold,
cold as greasepaint when the curtain falls
the lights die
and the performance is over.

(From a painting by Fiona Jeffrey, 1994)

Moreland Road

My great grandmother's California bungalow was
filled with dark corners and mystery,
Victorian tapestries of Arab scenes and
tall vases depicting Chinese landscapes,
bric-a-brac scattered across every surface
from every corner of the globe,
a Leipzig piano in the front lounge
serenaded by heavy couches,
a grandfather clock in the hall.

The stained glass windows in the
front double doors dimly lit the hall,
and the two bedrooms were dark,
places only for sleep with chamber pots
under the bed and dark wood wardrobes
for clothes.

The kitchen lived in an earlier century,
although a gas stove graced the the window
next to the sink and a formica 50s table
stood proudly on vinyl tiles.
The chair abutting the wall boasted a potty

The fireplace in the sitting room was modern
and burned briquettes,
magic castles of red and orange flame...
there was even a small black and white TV where I
was allowed to stay up late on a Friday night and watch
Deadly Ernest's B grade horror movies,
lying on an ancient chaise lounge while
my great grandmother
sat in her chair and smiled.

The back door led to a porch which hung over
a long backyard littered with sheds and outbuildings,
a double dunny and woodshed half way to the back fence
faced sheds housing treasures acquired and discarded over decades,
seaman's chests
cylinder phonograms,
boxes of cylinder recordings,
old bikes,
rusted tools, saws and scythes,
dead hand mowers blades long dulled,
books eaten by silverfish and moths,
treasures to a young boy's imagination.

My great grandmother's California bungalow
in Moreland Road West Brunswick
was long ago knocked down and replaced by
cheap townhouses,
the front verandah bulldozed and
privet hedges razed.

Memories float into the clouds with the asbestos
dust of loss.

Midnight

Midnight
a new day blooms
as lightening splits the sky

my lover sleeps through
thunder
but I feel a pale regret
for lips not kissed
for limbs not stroked
for breasts not caressed
for love not consumed.

She sleeps restless as
humidity steals breath,
breezes licking our skin
from the fan in the ceiling.

I lie and dream
of softness entered.

Logic of Love

When he thought about syllogisms
he twisted the assumption and
didn't think about illogic.

All people are kind therefore we are
all kind of people,
but this is false since not all people are kind
nor are kind people therefore...

Something is wrong in the hills
where the trees die,
when butterfly wings flap in
a cold wind like defunct flags
if clowns smile promises.

You don't laugh like you used to
and grass seems paler,
streets are filled with suits and skirts
but you don't wear them.

You're not there,
a wisp flowing down tram tracks,
a taste of
cold logic hard love.

Her Necklace Glistening

Inspiration is not worth the perspiration
of justification denied red-headed lovers
licking wax,
turned into candlesticks
flickered flame flashing.

She had flowing dark hair
tied back with a red ribbon
luck was her fancy but
he was not home when
she was found,
laughing,
her tears a necklace
glistening.

He stared with red-ribboned
eyes
vacant inside
then touched a tear drop
and moistened his lips,
then kissed her eyelids
as the night closed.

Her Lover

Her lover vanished in velvet
soft lips
subsumed by silken hair
and tender fingers
consumed by eyes which
knew his depths.

Her lover lost himself
on a plateau of ecstatic regret
wandered along her limbs
until he faltered as her
gates opened and his
world spun madly across her valleys.

Her lover roamed her wilderness
a madman wrapped in
cloaks of brilliantine desire
stroking her cheeks
while stars whizzed around
her galaxies of love.

Then they slept together
in a bed of feather light.

Establishment

Establishment
is a polysyllabic word
too long to use in casual
conversation.

Establishment
is mostly defined as
an existing power structure,
'The Man'.

Establishment
enables entrenched interests
to maintain authority over
opinion.

Establishment
can be a subtle influence
on perceptions and values,
consciousness.

Establishment
dictates opinion but
opinion is not determined by
establishment.

Establishment
is opposed to opinion
and opinion reinforces establishment
so we become

Establishment
in my opinion.

So I cut Establishment and
let loose the cats of wail
blow the walls of agate
scream the screed of shadow.

The break
is
made
when
rules
are
turned into muddy flowers...
ellipsis
follows an incomplete
opinion
established
by a bespectacled frog
the true brain of
the swamp.

Look to the skies for
missile trails
but forget our love of
sunsets,
mottled blazing shades of red
could well be nuclear debris.

Shut up!
There's nothing more to say
when butterflies cry and
seeds fail to climb
to a dying sun
in her coruscating pyramid of

Establishment.

New Year

Cheers to the new year
as the old year fades
to well earned oblivion.

Brightness is our hope
but experience shrugs
with 20/20 hindsight vision.

Promise leads the way to
swishing waves on the beach,
light reftracts through the prism.

Truth is a whisky dream
but still flowers bloom in an
obscure life-giving mission.

So let's dance the Milky Way
and watch celestial fireworks,
may we be all love driven.

Christmas Day

Christmas is a series of freeways
with traffic forever changing lanes

Wrapping paper blows across
the road

I grip the steering wheel
and think of pudding

as the bay seduces me with
blue beauty

and the vineyards clamber
across festive hillsides

someone has left bags of rubbish
outside the gates of their farm

Wrapping paper blows across
the road.

The Rose Wept Dew

When I plucked a rose
dappled with dew
I saw the face of
a lover I knew.

When I breathed
your perfume in
a boyish lark
there was no
possible smart remark

to make.

When you danced
upon my grave of dreams
and saw the rose wilt,
all hope left
our reflected lake

too late.

Lost faces laughed
without care
as you smiled at
at an inner joke
so true, fair and cruel.

But I made peace
with your yoke

neck stretched
across that failed pew,
beauty fled while
the rose wept dew.

Dandelion

Suburban flower
I see in your yellow teardrop petals a
universe sly as the glint in a magpie's eye
your flower symphony
epitome of beauty with a
hint of mortality
final encore beneath a rising tide
of marching antennae astride
housing estates of the future
razor wire and concrete walls
anomie of backyard bonhomie
hope abandoned among dead gums
barbecue of dreams
lifeless minds with TV screens.


She saw nothing special in orderly rows
brick by brick building a wall of solitude
mortared with guilt
watered with tears
demolished forests replaced with fear
longing for destiny
mystery of inner light
sewing holes in happy memories
singing to escape mundanity
to no place special
where sirens crush life from footpaths
windows are sightless eyes in
urban cemeteries of rusty gutters and
twisted tram-tracks.

It's always five to midnight in the cell where
his body hangs
where each elegy is a suicide on the track
where the street is drunk and every house an untapped keg
where dreams are lost and scarecrows found
somehow to awake and
gaze at a flower
see a place far from here
another world
where reeds sway to a chorus of frogs
birds sing to the melting rain
far from power lines
far from smog
as a blizzard of petals obscures the street
and a yellow flower stands alone.

I walk home from the station
glance over my shoulder at a stranger following
she smiles and hands me a dandelion.

Why!?

Why!
I wish I knew.
Socrates asked this damned
question as did
Julius Sumner Miller.


Why? Do you see it is now a question?
It's the biggest, most fabulousistantic question of all.
why?

So why do I exclaim?

Is it because the question is both
an appeal and a declaration?!

Do we have
to be
concrete
in
the
way
we see?

Or perhaps we should fly
and somehow defy
the intransigent
gravity of defecation.

Why?!?!
Damned if I know, and
I know a helluva of a lot.

Do you want to know?
Really?

The swan never feeds
on halal fish.

A galaxy is painted
in watercolour

Death is a colour.

Light is waves and particles.

Mass is a mathematical illusion.

Poetry is truth
and I'm a liar.

!?

Seamus Heaney

When great poets die
there should be a wake.
Irish poets should be
celebrated
with pints raised and
songs sung
words wrapped with green
meaning
our thoughts turned to
the world we share,
dewdrops in the morning sun.


August 31st 2013

Dark Side

My dark side snidely remarked
"you're not the man you thought you were"
and he was right,
I'm worse.

I thought I cared for all
I thought love gave meaning to life
I thought truth was stronger than lies
I thought art illuminated the world.

My dark side snickered
"well you were a naive sort, weren't you?"
and he was right,
I was stupid.

I thought people are fundamentally good
I thought ideas really mattered
I thought reason would win an argument
I thought compassion would win in the end.

My dark side laughed
"how stupid can you be?"
and he was right
I am a fool.

My dark side sneered
"see, there's nothing left but me"
but my dark side is wrong
because I'm right
and my dark side slithers back
into the slime of mind.

Afterthought

No poem is capable of expressing life,
no lyrical phrases adequate to the task,
no bleak aphorisms suited to the tears,
no adjectives alive to expressions of joy,
no metric rhythm sufficient.

So we have to try another angle,
weep like babes torn from a mother,
laugh like kids playing hopscotch in the street,
frown like scholars pondering Sartre,
make love as if death is ruffling your sheets.

See how simple it becomes?
Love and Death dance around
autumn blown leaves,
soft lips brush your cheek
as doors close on starlings.

But, and there's always a but,
you peer around the corner of
desire and find only mist,
then touch the stars and cry
for lost words.

Bridge Road Blues

Well I remember inner city life
but the inner city doesn't remember me -
or perhaps the chic eateries and boutique bars
are too recent,
blow-ins from some weird new world
of patisserie and ennui.

Bridge Road Richmond used to be hard core,
an iron bar brandished against
the toffs across the river,
but now? Merde!
Too many posies of posers and
overpriced drinks...
give me the 'burbs,
at least out here we know when
we're being ripped off.

The factories are now apartment blocks,
oh so trendy, oh so cool,
but goddamn how good it is to get outta there,
out to the 'burbs where philosophy
hinges on the next pay day,
and kids skip along the streets after school
protected by lollipop people,
and the takeaway food is better,
cheaper,
and doesn't come with a
side serve of snobbery.

Darkness Rolls

So hatred is the norm
and decency is hated.

So honesty is dead
and liars are delighted.

So bigots enjoy free speech
but honest speech is hated.

So truth is false
and lies are feted.

So science is rubbish
and reasoned thought dated.

Let the darkness roll.

Day Off

On my day off
we drove through peak hour traffic
for over an hour.

On my day off
we sat in hospital waiting rooms
for over two hours.

On my day off
we sorted house moving rubbish
for far too long.

On my day off
the temperature soared and wind bit
for hours and hours.

On my day off
we went supermarket shopping
till the end of time.

On my day off
I finally sat in my chair
timeless.

Dewdrops

When the dove died
we heard the final flutters
of her heart.

Her last thoughts were
of clear blue skies
and dewdrops.

When cities died we
heard anguished screams,
saw visions of blood.

When the world died
no-one heard her cries,
only silence of hate.

The Slipped Mask

When he felt that sad slide
into darkness
he remembered her mask.

A mask of laughter
A mask of pain
A mask of tragedy
A mask of dreams.

So he listened to
the rustle of leaves
shuffle across the footpath
and touched blue night.

If light could sing
her song would wound,
your heart would hurt...

He couldn't listen to
the glissando as it
rose to meet his blue
lyrics dredged from her depths.

Then a V8 screamed defiance
but he twisted the dream,
and softly flowed lovers
naked in a stream.

I Wonder Why

I wonder why
life is cheap
water is pure
space is vast
trees are tall
mice are small
mist is cool.

I wonder why
music moves me
words are ambiguous
wealth is worthless
love is priceless
thought is hard
grass is soft.

I wonder why
art is good
dogs are friendly
cats are aloof
philosophy is dead
books are unread
hearts turn cold.

I wonder why.

I Refuse

I refuse to accept this
I refuse to submit to fear
I refuse to be a victim
I refuse to be a bigot.
I refuse to succumb to hate
I refuse to reject compassion
I refuse to reject reason
I refuse to lose hope.
I refuse to accept injustice
I refuse to accept oppression
I refuse to accept deception
I refuse to fall for lies.
I refuse to lose my humanity
I refuse to lose our freedoms
I refuse to lose democracy
I refuse to become refuse.

Loss

She sings but all
we hear is pain,
mellifluous in agony
each note a needle,
melancholy inserts
a forlorn chord as
sadness licks her
sun.

In silence all
she hears is a rose scream,
but vacuum sucks love;
so sad...
loss levers hope,
an exquisite equilibrium
in her satin night.

So she drinks the little death
and luxuriates in his arms,
and why should she wake
when hope lingers
amidst the lingerie of
her better world?

Dreams drift like mist
through her screaming sky,
never again fulfilled,
pregnant and bereft,
gone with wisps.

Carnations and Angels

Visiting the City of the Dead
is an odyssey of traffic lights
dissecting nondescript suburbs,
children sucking lollipops on
footpaths outside shopping malls,
churchgoers fulfilling obligations
on Autumnal Sunday,
and obscure folk singers on the
CD player in the jeep.

Springvale Road is legendary for its length,
cutting the Eastern suburbs like
a cut throat razor until the chaos
of Princes Highway messes everything up,
an ugly blotch of roads, traffic lights and cars.

Somehow Police Road is comforting even
knowing where it leads,
the bone yard
the ash grove
the vale of lost love
the farm of tears
and wilted flowers,
a parade of plaques portraying the
perfection of death,
the smiles of the lost.

Clipped lawns conceal
our despond as
carnations and angels
grace the grave.

Massacre

He was alone in a purple desert
littered with indigo outcrops of
razor quartz,
the desert wind was light as a butterfly's sigh,
but hot as a forge in summer
smelting dreams.
Moonlight slapped sand and rock
as he wandered through knee high gorse,
another pinpoint of thought
amid stars and dunes,
a nomad of the mist.
Then he woke in a sweat,
sheets drenched,
to news of slaughter in Paris,
and the desert was red
and the stars fled
and butterfly sighs became tears.